Part 3 of 3
“I feel happy inside,” says Corrie as we meet again after our video consultation 2-weeks earlier. The joy in her eyes underlines her words. Curious, I ask if she has any idea what’s making her so happy. “In the previous session, it became so clear to me that what someone else says about me, is mainly about that particular person. It has made me feel a lot calmer lately. What has also given me so much relief is that I can let go of having contact with my sister. I no longer feel the need to call or email her. Should she call, I will see then”.
She lets out a deep sigh, smiles at me and continues, "What also makes mehappy is the 40-day meditation with Snatam. Meditation for 11 minutes every day. Love and light are the guiding principles here. Once a week, I meet the other participants online, and we do a joint meditation with Snatam. And, I would also like to talk to you about that today.”
I can already feel which way this is going, because I've known her before today. She also confirms this a little later.
Corrie says, "As much as I enjoy meditating, I'm afraid I am losing all control. What is will the growth of my consciousness bring about. Would my sister be right if she says I'm on the ‘wrong path’?”
“Is there anything inside you that knows this very path is right for you?” I question her.
“Heck yes! Fortunately, I feel that the most. But, that other thought just keeps coming back."
When I ask her what she would most like to believe, she knows immediately.
"Of course, I would much rather believe that love and light are the guiding principles. Somehow, I feel very strongly that it is right. But, how can I be sure I'm not wrong?" Corrie asks.
I share that, like her, grew up in a Christian home. From a young age, I learned that, for example, it is good when you are nice and that it is not good when you are angry. In short, I was raised with right and wrong well-ingrained. It made me question my intuition. The grown-ups knew better than I did. This had long haunted me and made me doubt myself. I now know that it is not about right or wrong, but about following your inner voice.
You feel very clearly that Snatam's music and the meditations make you happy. Not long ago, you told me that you experience it like coming home and that you have never experienced such deep love for yourself before." When I look at her, I see tears streaming down her cheeks. She nods.
"It is your concern, at the moment, that shows it is right for you. The voice from the past that says it is wrong for you to do something wrong, is resolved by shining a light on it. You can imagine this very simply by allowing the sun to shine on it in your mind. When that voice from the past comes back again, imagine the sun. Almost too simple to be true, don't you think? "
I explain to her how I do this myself, and that I still practice it every day.
“Fortunately, you’re only 70, Corrie, so you still have plenty of time to practice,” I say jokingly.
She laughs.
A moment later, we conclude our conversation with great satisfaction.